Putting the Me in ‘ME’rry Christmas

Pretty Feet, Pop Toe

I am spending Christmas Day alone. Before you drown out the Christmas carols with the sound of a thousand tortured violins, please be assured that I am happy about this, nay, delighted. I am delighted to be spending Christmas alone. Except, I’m not alone, because there are more than a few of us out there doing our own thing on our own, but together, alone. If you know what I mean.

I’m looking forward to my Christmas Day pour une. I don’t always look forward to the festivities, and that’s because other people and their pity get in the way with their “oh you can’t possibly spend the day on your own, I shall be miserable just thinking about you!” – well, “you” might be miserable, but I certainly won’t. The fact you may not be able to tolerate your own company doesn’t mean that I can’t enjoy mine very…

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The Best Things Happen Unexpectedly..

Hey everyone!! it has certainly been a while. Life happened…filled with its daily bumps of ups and downs, joy and sadness and everything in-between. Hopefully, this is me being back to what i love doing….writing/speaking my mind 🙂

As i was discussing with a friend yesterday, i had an epiphany..I felt like i have been too hard on myself all the while and this is because i have not been too happy about not being where i am supposed to be (professionally..and maybe personally as well). However, this is where the “conundrum” comes in because if i am not hard on my myself, i am afraid i become complacent and if i am hard on myself, i lose focus of my blessings.

To recap on what has been going on since i stopped writing, 2014 was not a good year for me. I had to make the hardest decision to move to another city (California) and if anyone has had to move without any assurance of what’s to come/no money, they know how difficult it is. I would certainly not go into details, but let’s just say things got difficult and i ended up not going for my graduation (i graduated with a Master’s degree in Economics) and it didn’t feel right…and till today, i kinda don’t really look at graduation photos because it reminds me of  what i missed, which is celebrating i came this far…

Cut to Jan 2015, i got a job. It was the start of a new / good year for me, at least, i  have some income, without having to rely on anybody..My contract is to end very soon and the realization has hit me once again, that i may be back to year 2014, if i am i not careful (there are other things involved, which i cannot say) but i guess all i can do is to keep working hard, fighting and praying.

I was telling a friend the other day that i know i am progressing but it is at a very, very , very slow pace, which can be infuriating at times. At least i can say, i am at a better place than where i was last year, which is good right?!!

I just thought to keep you updated of what has been going on and why i have not been focused on my blog..i hope i have your forgiveness 🙂

its tough but i know we will all get to where we want to be!!

*sigh*